Dear journal,

this past few weeks i havnt been feeling really well. I had a migrane since wednesday till friday. Feels like i wanted to chopped off my head. Days b4 that,i had backache. Then when my migrane is gone,i had flu and cough. i hate it soooo much. *sigh* Maybe becoz of too much working so my health is getting worse.

So, i decided to do some sports. I went out to play street soccer with my friends. wahahaha~~ finally a real sweat!! it was fun but tiring coz i lost my stamina.need to re-do my time table so that i cud go jogging in the morning.maybe i'll start when World Cup finished. hehehehe..

Anyhoo, last saturday night, i went to Jerudong Park with Azizi, Azim, Dyjie, Dyjie's sis,cousin and friend. Went there after work. I wasn't planning to play any rides though,but since Azim's aunts and cousins were there,and they wanted to go home,they gave me their rides tickets.hehe.. i only played the flying dinosour thingy (which i know what's the name of the dinosour except that i dunno the spelling), then played the gun thingy which the targets shoot out water (i hit most of my targets and let the rest of them got wet..heheh) and played bumper car the must-play ride!! haha..it was fun. Then b4 going back home,Azizi and I went to Liyana's Nasi Katok and fill up our tummy there.

Oh ya..these past few weeks oso i was having our overtime work till midnight. haha... gila ih.. workaholick yoooo~~

ayte then.. that's all for today.

cheers

syaz @ nacatus

Dear journal,

Do you have friends? Who? Me? Awww.. thank you. Well, anyhoooozzz.. these are meaning of FRIENDS to me. Check this out.

FRIENDS are those people whom i trust.
FRIENDS are those people who trust me.
FRIENDS are those people who come and visits me.
FRIENDS are those people who msg me just to say hi and doesn't think its gay.A miss call is also.
FRIENDS are those people who do not talk behind me.
FRIENDS are those people who think about me and doesn't think its gay to think bout it.
FRIENDS are those people who hit me on the back when i say something wrong.
FRIENDS are those people who back me up.
FRIENDS are those people who understands me.
FRIENDS are those people who knows my attitude.
FRIENDS are those people who knows who am i for what i am.
FRIENDS are those people who knows exactly what kind of guy i am.
FRIENDS are those people who misses me when im not around. and its not gay to do that.
FRIENDS are those people who come to me for advices.
FRIENDS are those people who i ask for advices.
FRIENDS are those people who what's my fav drink is.
FRIENDS are those people who know what's my fav sports.
FRIENDS are those people who know what my fav things to do.
FRIENDS are those people who always talk talk talk to me.
FRIENDS are those people who know where to find me.
FRIENDS are those people who know where i always hang out.
FRIENDS are those people who know my car plate lisence.
FRIENDS are those people who the color of my car. THAT they dunno, then they are the person whom i dunno.
FRIENDS are those people who know where i live.
FRIENDS are those people who know what kind of career that im interested in.
FRIENDS are those people who supports me in anyway.
FRIENDS are those people who whom i support in anyway.
FRIENDS are those people who know i used to wear spects.
FRIENDS are those people who know how geeky look that i have last time.
FRIENDS are those people who respect me.
FRIENDS are those people who i respect.
Last but not least..To me FRIENDS are TRUE FRIENDS.

Ok. That is all.. i think...so journal, what do u think about friends?

cheers

syaz @ nacatus

A story of me...

im being honest here.i've been in love wif this girl since 5 yrs ago.told her once 5 yrs ago,she said she cant.so we stayed as a friend.asked her the 2nd time 3 yrs ago.still da same answer.den we got closer and closer till she's like as close as a bestfriend.but i dont consider her as a bestfriend.we cared for each other, laugh, happy, sad, we shared together.

my love for her is growing.end of year last year,after exams..i finally asked her again.i asked her to go out wif me on a date.she replied, im tooo late.i din get wat she meant.i always thought dat it was impossible to be wif her.her friends..well, my friends too.always said that it is not impossibl to be wif her.which i always do think it is impossible to be wif her.but when she said it was too late,my brain was blank,my heart stopped,felt like my soul was drifting away.body was cold,arms are numb,feet are frozen.

since then,i kept on avoiding from seeing her.and it was a success.i kept my self busy wif my own shit.she's drifting away from my mind.i also made a plan for not to see her by lying to her that i was goiin to UK to continue my studies.and she was angry at me by not telling her about it.she cried when i left.about a month later i came back.i din tell her dat i was back.only 2 persons of her friends knew i was back.well,both of them are my friends' gfs

a month later i bumped into her.she was surprised to see me and i haf to lie to her that im back for easter holiday.she asked for a kiss, on the cheek though. this neva happened b4.she neva asked me a kiss b4.since then, i kept on bumping into her and kept on seeing her unpuposely.since then i kept on thinking of her.for 5 months i managed to get rid of her from my mind.for months she wasnt der in my mind.for months i tot she was neva existed.

but now......she's always in a part of my mind.and made me feels really guilty that i lied to her.coz wheneva we bumped into each other,i saw her cold stare on me.yet a caring stare,a lovely stare,trying to attract my attention.but it felt like a kryptonite for me.this feelings hurt me so much.made me feels like a a guy who is trapped inside a cacoon who is still sufferring from the small space.a small ugly space and waiting and waiting for the time to get out of it.and become happy.

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Dear journal,

I was born in the year of Tiger. Not Rabbit. Coz when i put down the exact date, a year of Tiger came out. So, I'm a TIger. ROAR!! When i read the texts (read below), it says all about me. Which is really really true. Read it if u wana know more.

Tigers may not be the king of the jungle, but these striped cats are no softies! Magnetic and self-possessed, Tigers are born leaders. They have an air of authority that prompts others to fall in line, which is exactly how they like it. Although they are magnetically charming and fun to be around, Tigers like to go it alone sometimes too. A Tiger's main interest is in following its ambitions -- and maintaining control.

Tigers are courageous beyond compare and generally come out ahead in battle, be it in the boardroom or the bedroom. Seduction is one area where the Tiger is definitely king! Noble and warm-hearted, Tigers have a natural, raw appeal that's extremely attractive to other Signs. They're not just about attraction, though; ever on the side of right, Tigers will fight the good fight to the bitter end if the cause is worthy. Opponents are wise to fear this feline.

A bit of caution is a good thing around Tigers, since they can pounce without warning. They experience mood swings and often feel things more intensely than others, the latter quality being both good and bad. They can react poorly under stress and are prone to emotional outbursts. This Sign's bristling sensitivity can send friend and foe running for cover.

A lesson that Tigers would be well-served to learn is "moderation in all things." Once these cats can find their center and direct their considerable energies toward worthwhile endeavors (as opposed to racing through life), they will accomplish much.

The most compatible match for a Tiger is the Horse or the Dog.

So, that's it.

cheers

syaz @ nacatus

Dear Journal,

As you know last night i went to sleep over at Khai's crib. It was becoz we planned to go to Miri today. So we did. Persons who was going are Khairana, c Damit, Oxer, Pikong, Khai, Adi, Izzat, Nazree and me self. I only had a 2hrs of sleep or was it less than that. We woke up at around 4.30am in the morning coz we wanted to go early. Anyway, when everyone finished taking shower and dressing up,the sun was already up. We started our journey by 6.30ish in the morning. Persons who were driving was Oxer and Khai. Well,ofcoz we used 2 cars. 1st i followed Oxer's car. But then when we stopped at Izzat's friend's place, Khai asked me to drive his car since i know the way to Miri and the roads there and he's tired to drive. So i drove his car lah.

First went to a few stops and filling up petrol. It was a smooth journey though. We arrived in Miri, safely by 9am. The shops havnt open yet at that time. So we went to find a money changer. Our 1st stop was Imperial Mall. There we spent about 4hrs coz we had our lunch there and most of us spent more time on shopping there. I only bought Hoobastank - Everyman for Himself album. The green album one which it is a limited edition one. Bought that so already puas hati.i dont care other things anymore. All i care was to buy my Mommy Aling's CD. she asked me to buy either Lee Hom's new album or MC Hot Dog's cd. I know who's Lee Hom is coz he's cool. But i dunno who the hell is MC Hot Dog. Sounds funny though. haha.. i couldnt find the CDs at the Imperial Mall so finally we all decided to go to Bintang Plaza.

There in Bintang Plaza,i was damn lucky coz not even one round i got a parking to park the car already. Oxer's group, wahahhaa... kesian lorh..i think it took them 30mins to find a park. There at Bintang Plaza,spent most of my times with Oxer coz he wanted my suggestion on some stuffs and he wanted me to choose clothings for him to buy. Well, yea i know i have a good sense of style. So people come to me for my advice lah. hehe.. While helping out Oxer trying on tshirts,i saw this one coooool jacket!! rugged brabis!! then i tried it..it was really rugged lah. So i bought it. Oh ya..since i cudnt find Mommy's CD,so i text her up bout it. And she called back and asked me to buy her Movie's magazine.

I dont know any movie's magz tough,so i juz grab the latest issue of it lah. So wet to shop an shop again. Then Finally our last stop was Bolevourd Mall. There, there were many and many people!! traffic jam boss!! Lucky again the security guard directed us to park our car in the basement. Whereas, i dont have any idea where the hell is your Oxer and his group. haha.. So we have to wait for them again lah. We spent our time there doing our final shopping coz that'll be our last stop for shopping. But i was fucking hungry so asked them all to meet up at the food court by 5.30pm. I oredered Claypot mee which was really delicios. nyum nyum~ then i went to buy the magz for mommy Aling. Then finally we took off to go home by 6.30pm.

More & more people was coming to that place. Then we all saw this really large stage. Skali 'terclick' oledi that Miri was having a 'Sure Heboh' concert. While we we stuck in the traffic jam, we were passing by the stage and we saw Nurul & Ajai performing. cool~~ then finally we reached the big round about. i always confuse with that round about. b4 we left i asked Pikong which was the way back to Brunei. Was it the 2nd or 3rd spg of the round about. he said t go to Krokop. So we did lah..but the jln was really different. So i was expected that we went to the wrong road. I didnt see Oxer's car although we tried to get faster. So we turned back lah and tried the road after krokop. So oledi happy that we took the right one oledi.

But then after few minutes driving,i realised that we are still at the wrong jln again. coz the roads are suppose to become one,but all the way it still 2 roads. So i juz drive lah. Without panicking and with out telling anyone that we were lost again. i continued driving till i saw a big sign which was showing "--> Custom, Sg Tujoh". so i juz follow the sign lah. follow and follow til i recognise the road and saw the large bridge. *phew* arrived at the toll there, Oxer and his group was waiting for us. They said they also juz arrived. Rupa2 nya dorg lagi lost. but worse than us. haha.. they reached the old Ferry Terminal. LOLz.. that is fucking far orh.. LOLz..

Then when everything was done, passport checking and car..we went back home straight away to Khai's house. I drove really fast coz my bro wanted me to fetch him up from work. so i haf to rush lah and left Oxer's party behind. Then we arrived at Khai's place at exactly 9.0pm juz like what i predicted. Then i took all my stuffs and get ready to go home.

So i end up buying 1 CD, a jacket, and 2 Magz also foods. hehe..

ayte then..that is all..

cheers

syaz @ nacatus